January 2000 January 1999 January 1998 Rachel's Daily Diary _________________ Friday 21 January 2000   1 17 am pst   [ eclipse blues ] I was bummed when I was reminded that I misses the full lunar eclipse tonight. I saw a swanky lunar eclipse image which was credited to MrEclipse.com. From that site I learned that there is an Eclipse Chasers WebRing. Apparently, there will be a total solar eclipse on 21 June 2001. I would love to have the luxury of going on an eclipse viewing vacation. What a blast!

8 03 pm pst   [ whispered memories ] Cleaning out my folder on my mother's computer, I came across a file which contained only this: Fri 29 May 98 9:02 pm I miss you tonight. I miss holding you close to my body. I miss the way we feel together. I think of you across an ocean. I hope you are having a wonderful time. It makes me feel so good to think that you are happy. I try to please you a dozen ways every day. You delight me. You say things to me I never dreamed I would hear from a man, and certainly not one as kind and intelligent as you. I miss your lips. I love you, Matthew. I love all the things you say to me without ever opening your mouth. I know the beautiful things you feel by the way you look at me, the way you touch me, the way you hold me. You make my world spin. I have no idea where Matthew was on 29 May 98, or even where I was. I do know I feel the same about him as I did then.

11 44 pm pst   [ his mother my father ] I told him last night that I was going to invite his mother to dinner and a movie. He made me promise that if we ever broke up, I would remain friends with his mother. I readily agreed. I didn't need to say the same went for my mom. I called her tonight. She is a lovely woman. We have fun gabbing. I think she likes to complain to me because she doesn't get to often. I know several people like that. We didn't decide on a movie, but we are both ammenable to many films. We made plans for Monday. I suggested the day. I was asked not to be home. My father e-mailed me from Costa RIca a few days ago. He caught a 100 pound sailfish and released it back to the sea.

Today he called me. He is having a blast. He wanted to let me know he was going to stay an extra three days. He will be home on Monday. Would I mind not being there? He wants to have "company" over. It bothers me not that my father is dating. I do get irked when he says things like, "I'm spending the night at a friend's." A friend's? He's not in high school. I wish he'd just call 'em by name. I'm spending the night at Linda's. Much better. He keeps his women seperate from his children. He believes that he is being a good father when he does so. But I don't like the whole in what I know of him. I don't like that I can't meet them. I like to evaluate.

two years ago today: "I was in the third row and there were a few empty seats around me, but we all know how uncool it is to sit in the front of the class. I like being in the front." * * * one year ago today: "In typical mood swing flavor, I am rather elated right now." * * * one month ago today: "I am to cool off and offer up my existence to the mountain. But I delare my humanity; I must fight against the snow and gravity my whole way down. Then I ask to do it again." * * * <   yesterday   |   month   |   tomorrow   > ~   back to Rachel's Daily Diary   ~