8 08 am pdt   [ like clockwork ]

Like clockwork I wake up an hour before I need to every morning. This morning I was having a dream of performing some very precise operation. I have been having no luck at remembering my dreams lately.

I feel as though I am biding my time. I am waiting until December to see how my job pans out. I am waiting to be with Matthew again. I need to start living and stop waiting. I need to stop putting off my plans. I haven't gotten an apartment because I can come up with a whole slew of excuses for why I should wait. But when I really think about it, waiting doesn't benefit me at all. I need to get off my butt and get motivated.

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