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11 23 pm pdt [ long day ] I am sleepy, and out of it. One of my co-workers was rude to me today, and that made me grouchy for a while. I still don't get any recognition for me work, and that is hard for me because I thrive on positive reinforcement. I don't mind being left to my devices as long as once a month I hear that I am doing a good job. Does that make sense? I spent ages on the phone with Matthew last night. We talked about how I am like a rollercoaster (since I spend half the time talking about us getting married and half talking about us breaking up). I am. I admit to it. It's part of the package. I am one of those scary, express my feelings all the time, kind of people. I know that it's hard for him, but whenever I offer to try a bit less erratic he says that he prefers me to simply express how I feel continually. Damned if I do, damned if I don't... * * * I had lunch with two of the programmers today -- the same two I ate with during my first week of work. We went to the same restaurant. I adore them. They tease me all day long, but they also have exceptional patience for helping me, explaining things, and teaching me new stuff. I have been like a sponge of late, learning mountains of new concepts and skills. I can't believe how much I retained from reading the user's manual to our previous software package. I can't believe I may play a part in writing the new one...
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August 1998 |