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Thursday
16 November 2000

8 33 am pst   [ Judge Judy ]

I had a strange long dream. I was taking a class at UCLA so I went there very early in order to find the location. I was a bizare conglomeration of streets and houses and school buildings (in other words, it didn't look anything like UCLA really does and I didn't know my way around it at all). I had a map and I began asking people for help with directions. I met a nice guy and was walking toward his place with him. He asked me inside because he wanted to give me something, but I don't remember what now. He had a whole slew of roommates inside eating breakfast and getting ready for the school day.

I can't remember the details of being in the apartment, but eventually I did something that pissed everyone off and I had to leave quickly because they were angry. [This event was no doubt triggered by a long conversation with my dad last night about feeling guilty when I accidentally upset someone.] The contents of my bookbag were scattered about and I had to search for each item quickly. I was wearingan oversized burgundy shirt and pants and at some point I had realized that I had a heart-shaped pillow in my shirt covering my chest area. I though how ridiculous it must make me look, so I took it out nd looked in the mirror, only to realize that now I was swimming in my clothes and looked even worse. When I was gathering my iteams to leave, I couldn't find the heart-shaped pillow and so I stuffed a throw pillow from the couch in my shirt but that didn't work right at all.

I finally found my heart-shaped pillow, but I had spent all my efforts locating it and thus had to leave without my maps and several of my other belongings. My class had long-since started and I was highly distressed that I wasn't going to be able to attend.

My dream cut to the second class period. I located the building and classroom. My instructor was Judge Judy. Unlike telvisions small Judge Judy, my instructor was big, curvy, and red-headed but she shared her loud personality with tv's Judge Judy persona. She embarrassed me for being late but then accepted that I was sincere about learning. She had mullticolored cats (i.e. purple and blue) which chased each other around the classroom and tumbled about together.

10 33 pm pst   [ reef tank ]

I took a whole series of photos at work today of the reef tank there which has gotten my so obsessed with having my own. I could have no fish at all and be perfectly happy with just invertabreas.

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My eyes change colors, but I don't ever know because I don't look at myself. My eyes were green today, as evidenced by the shot I snapped on myself at my desk...

 my eyes were green today

 

3 years ago today: Sabine is a voice whispered to me across the wire.

2 years ago today: I got in a solitary mood eating alone on a cold bench in the dark.

1 year ago today: What more can you ask for in another human being?

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