9 08 pm pst   [ affection ]

I didn't tell you that both Matthew and I are taking off work this week in order to spend more time together. I didn't tell you that we're going to Vegas with his family after Thanksgiving. I didn't really know myself until just recently. I had to work up the courage to ask for time off at work, even though it's unpaid time. And Vegas is just going to happen. We're driving and we don't have a hotel room (but his parents do). I have no idea what other members of his family will be there.

To be extra nice to him, I've agreed to spend this week (with the exception of Thanksgiving itself) with his family. Tonight we are going to see Charlie's Angels, which I hope will be a good ride.

Matthew is concerned that when I move up to the bay area it will be hard for us to adjust to being together all the time again. I don't think it will be difficult at all. I feel that we always slip along viscous walls into comfortable molds. We slide into familiar behaviour.

I tease him that when everything is going fine he makes up things to worry about. It is a tease grounded in reality. In my family, teasing is the main way of showing affection. I have to work hard not to tease people too much, because I know they won't understand I am doing it because I enjoy their company. What a strange way to grow up...

It is good to be with my Matthew again, and for so long...

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3 years ago today: That's when I want to wrap a naked man around me like a blanket and go to sleep.

2 years ago today: I didn't write because I was trying to get through all my school work before Thanksgiving break.

1 year ago today: Third, I am going back to California in two days. I haven't done even an eigth of the things I wanted to while I was here, but I suppose that is much better than being bored out of my gourd.

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