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Wednesday
23 May 2001

1 15 pm pdt [ pleasured ]

I have always been awed that we can set a series of lines, curves and dots on paper in contrasting ink and communicate to others of deepest sorrows or greatest joys. Humman communication will probably never cease to amaze me.

I use use pixel instead of ink, but hopefully to the same effect... I want to share. It's really not that I'm an exhibitionist or an egomaniac; I've got some unquenchable hunger to quantify and preserve myself in time. If I could take my vital statistics, write down everything I consume, have all-day GPS tracking of myself, and record every word that comes out of my mouth, it still wouldn't be enough. And I have to settle for this -- text and photos, the occasional artwork, sound byte, or digital video. I was to share, and mostly I want to share myself at a point in time, for myself in the future (and perhaps my future generations).

Some days these contrasting pixels just don't seem enough. Some days even words and body language don't cut it. This month's collab topic for On Display allows us to select our own mood / emotion / state of mind. I chose pleasured because I wanted to share with you a slice of my relationship. I wanted to lay sex and love and our three an half plus years of dating on the page for you. I wanted to "speak" of how he pleasures me; I am so pleasure, delighted, honored to share my life with him, but words are not enough.

You are welcome to scoff, but I happen to believe I enjoy sex more than most women (let's just say above average) and my continuing experience on this planet serves to support my theory. I've had people argue with my on the subject simply because they don't like the idea. I doubt there's some way to quantify one's enjoyment of something beyond one's frequency of desire to participate in said activity. As usual, I have digressed.

My beau continues to please me on every level. His willingness to "work" on our relationship serves for me as the ultimate sign of our love, though we, thankfully, have a partnering which does not require much work. My favorite part of our relationship is our capacity to spend a half dozen hours talking every single day. I can't imagine us ever running out of conversation. He tickles my fancy as I never imagined a man could...

 

 

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