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Tuesday
21 August 2001

9 51 pm pdt [ fear ]

I dreamt that a man attacked me. I beat him up pretty good, including kneeing him in the nuts, but I left him whole. I said, "Don't you ever lay a finger on me again," and he smirked and pressed a finger into my flesh, clearly communicating that he didn't take me seriously. I beat him up again, and this time someone must have helped, because he was a bloody pulp when we were done. He began muttering -- "... three hundred sity-five days a year..." -- about how he vowed to track me down and kill me and that he would spend every day on his mission. He tried to kill me once, but I was in a car with two people and they had guns. They shot at him over and over and I thought that it didn't make any sense that they were shooting through the windshield but the glass didn't break. They also didn't hit him. I knew he would be chasing me until he was dead.

When I woke up, I wanted Matthew to comfort me, and I called to him. But he was already on a conference call and headed out the door, so I made do with brushing across his fingertips with my own.

 

[ 3 years: ]

three years ago today: I didn't write because I was in New York.

two years ago today:

one year ago today: We make dinner dates. We talk on the phone. Sometimes I feel as though I am reliving something -- not quite my life, but a role I once played...

 

                 

30/30

American Movie (1999)

This film was alright, but not spectacular. The film Coven, which is included on the DVD, is wonderful, and should be watched with the same tone one would watch an Ed Wood film. 2.5 stars

The Thomas Crown Affair (1968)

We watched this movie over the course of 3 days and thoroughly enjoyed it. 4.5 stars

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day 20

Cinema Paradiso (1990)

I had seen this before, but barely remembered what a delightful film it is. 4 stars

 

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