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Thursday
1 November 2001
 

7 39 pm pst [ time keeps on slippin' ]

I had my second interview today. I took the bus and tried not to be nervous, since it was only supposed to be a formality. If I were going for another computer job there are all sorts of faults I could talk about, but when it comes to working with kids... I like to swim, garden, cook, play games, etc. I'm excited about this new job because I love being around kids so much.

I have to get fingerprinted asap, because I can't start until i do. So my first priority tomorrow morning is getting an appointment...

 

11 13 pm pst [ my baby ]

Matthew is depressed. He's in bed by 9:30 each night. It breaks my heart to see my baby so sad. I think it is work that has him down.

When I try to make suggestions about things that might make him feel better, he seems to think that I'm picking on his lifestyle. I can't seem to find a way of avaioding giving him this feeling, and I'm sure it's partially because he's in such a negative place just now, where everything feels like an attack.