I don't know what is compelling me to share this, as it was a mortifying experience, but I recall wetting my pants at school when I was in first grade. It would have been nice to know there was someone to turn to...
 

 
I made a wine journal for Matthew. You should see a link in a day or two.
 

 
Wow! I just learned that this here diary has been nominated as a finalist in the Best Journal (Overall) category for this quarter's Diarist Awards. I am so touched that I was even nominated. Thank you!!!
 

 
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Friday
9 November 2001

 

09 54 am pst [ the wheels on the bus go round and round ]

Riding on the bus is a cultural experience. For example, I hadn't see anyone wear a comb in their hair as a fashion statement since the early eighties, but thanks to my bus ride, I am once again reminded why this particular activity befuddles me so. Yesterday at the bus stop I waited with two men. One openly smoked a bowl of pot from his pipe while the other heartily picked his nose. I'm not speaking of just the one-finger pick but the two fingers-in-one-nostril pincer action.

On Tuesday, on my way to work, these two guys got on and one spoke for the entire ride in the most perfect slang I've ever had the experience to witness. I wished I had one of those little tape recorders so I could record every word, and then transcribe it into the new novel I am pretending to write.

On the way home there was a small girl riding with her dad. She had cut her knee and was whining constantly, "Owwie, owwie. It hurts. I need a band-aid. Owwie, owwie." Being a klutz, I actually carry them around with me, so I walked over and handed her a bandage much to her surprise. The delight lasted thirty seconds before she decided she wanted a second one. Her father didn't want me to fish another one out and instead made her spell her name for me after thanking me. She was adorable.

I wonder what today's ride will bring...
 

7 03 pm pst [ I dig kids. ]

I forgot to mention that on yesterday's bus ride there was a guy who had a large, black plastic rat which he placed in the aisle in the hopes of scaring oncoming passengers. It takes all kinds.

I worked hard at not saying yesterday was a bad day at work. Yesterday was a great day but at the very end one of my co-workers was rude and it colored my perception of the day.

The main drama of my day was when a little girl asked me to go to the bathroom with her. I couldn't figure out why, but I did and once there learned that she had wet her pants. She kept asking me to go to the office and finally I convinced her to go with me. There I learned that this office is actually equipped for such occurrences, but the little girl didn't want any of the available extra underwear because they were all boy's underwear. She said it was already starting to dry.

Today I played Magical Mystery Forest, freeze tag, Jewel Sword, Sandman, and Tickle Monster. I had one boy tell me I should cut my nails, and about four girls tell me they are long. I dig kids. They say the best stuff. I know I am forgetting some funny things they said, but such is life. I played freeze tag on the first day of work and now they ask every day if we can play again. Do you see what I just did? I said every day like this was my third month of work instead of my third day.

So here's the run-down on my job. I work in an afterschool program at a private school in Oakland. It is about as ethnically diverse as you can get and I think the school covers junior kindergarten through middle school. I play with the JKers - 5th graders. We feed them snack and try to get them to run around a bunch. I love when they put their tiny soft hands in mine to drag me somewhere.

The rest of the run-down is that my job exactly covers my rent, before taxes. So I need to find something else. But there are some days when there is no school (such as teacher conferences) when our program runs all day, and then I'll make a bit extra. I'm also thinking of being a substitute teacher. I always loved the days when we had subs. Lastly, I've been taking the bus, but my beau's new car has arrived so I will probably start driving his old car on Monday.

When I arrive at my bus-stop, I cross the freeway, and when I leave, I cross back over...

Oh goody, I remembered the two funny things I wanted to tell you. First of all, the intern who runs study hall failed to show up yesterday, so I ran study hall. The 4th grade boys were being very giggly so I went over to check on them and found them all huddled over a book. As I approached they tried to pass it off to each other and shove it under the table, but I made them give it to me. I looked down and saw What's Happening to My Body? and I gave a little internal nod thinking "Now I know what all the buzz is about!" Then I gave it a second glance: What's Happening to My Body? Book for Girls. Then I really understood. So I sat down and took a gander. Ouch, this thing was published in 1983 and updated in 1988. The illustrations were graphic and clinical and unappealing. I personally would recommend Changing Bodies, Changing Lives but back to the issue. Eventually the boys started giggling again and one of them muttered, "You sure are interested in that book." I replied that I though it was sort of outdated. Who recommends douching to teens? Yeech! I asked them if they had any questions about the book and one replied very quickly with a definitive, "No!" There was no room to wonder about how they felt about discussing sex with me. So I took the book to the librarian and explained that I didn't know where to reshelve it and she said, "I'll leave it out because tomorrow we have the 5th grades in and this is quite a popular title." These poor kids are getting some sort of Victorian sex ed!

The second thing is that I was drawing with a girl at the end of the day today and I decided to draw Matthew.

"Who's that?" she asked.

"My boyfriend."

"Where's his hair?"

"He has a shaved head. But I can put in a little stubble." I set about adding stubble to my sparse drawing.

"Do you kiss when you come home at night?"

"Yes."

And then she sat there thinking about that for a long time, and I wondered if I had just made some sort of lasting impression on her view of the universe.